She's gone. I think yesterday goes down as the worst day of my life. We said goodbye. I am completely heartbroken, devastated, a broken man. A little piece of my heart has died. We only had a few months but it has to have been the best months of my life. I felt alive! I… Continue reading Because she’s gone…
Unable to sleep, a horrible anxious feeling coursing through my mind and body. It feels like everything is falling apart around me, completely out of my control. I got out of bed and came quietly downstairs before I woke anyone, before I added fuel to the fire, before I created an even bigger rift than… Continue reading Day 64…..confusion caused by clarity.
Sometimes in life you get amazing opportunities, a chance to reach out and grab something really special, something will cross your path that may be life changing. My feeling is that this might only ever happen once, it may be fleeting or maybe it could last forever, so I was always ready to grasp at… Continue reading My real love, my best friend….my everything.
Another evening spent with LM's family. I was in good humour, relaxed and generally happy. It has been a busy day, gardening in glorious sunshine while keeping four children under 12 occupied; an early purchase of a paddling pool and a sand pit with a significant amount of sand helped here. Although looking out of… Continue reading Day 58….the sympathy pint…and the truth.
I had a conversation with AK today, we discussed my blog. (she is the only person I trust enough to share this blog with. In fact, she's the only person I actually trust) We briefly discussed the posts that are about her. (obvious to anyone who's read them) and we discussed the posts that will… Continue reading Day 54…..what happens next?
This weekend ended with an invitation to a barbeque. Mainly LM's family present, all drinkers. They all know I'm not drinking but none of them take it seriously. It starts like every other visit: You're not drinking yet? Just have lager instead. Don't know why you're bothering, it won't last forever. Stop taking the piss… Continue reading Day 51…..alcohol in food? No thanks.
Just have a drink. You're miserable without alcohol, might as well have a drink. Listening to music with earphones all the time, you might as well be asleep drunk, you're no company. How can you say I'm not supporting you? I'm still here after all these years of your drinking, isn't that showing support? I… Continue reading Day 49….Support?