The day started well, I spent a lot of time with my children, we had a lot of fun and there was plenty laughter. As the party got busier the kids did their own thing with other kids and the adults migrated together towards tables full of alcohol. I sat among friends and family, some… Continue reading Day 86… The party!
Two normally alcohol fueled events fast approaching: large outdoor party being planned for Saturday, lots of my partners family and friends will be there & a week long trip to Ibiza in October. It was like a planned attack, coming at me from different angles. You're going to be drinking at the party surely? Just… Continue reading Day 81 … They won’t give in.
Today is so fucking difficult. It's been a shit week, hard stressful days. I've tried to finish early every day, home before 6pm, hoping to ease the pressure between my partner and myself but the reality is that I just created more time for her to pick fights. My best friend has gone, only an… Continue reading Day 77…. I don’t know if I’m losing or winning.
One more day and I've beat my record, it'll be the longest I've went without alcohol in my adult life. I feel so happy that I've not had a single drink in this time but so far I'm not feeling any significant benefits. My sleep is different but I don't think it's better. I used… Continue reading Day 74……beating my record.
She's gone. I think yesterday goes down as the worst day of my life. We said goodbye. I am completely heartbroken, devastated, a broken man. A little piece of my heart has died. We only had a few months but it has to have been the best months of my life. I felt alive! I… Continue reading Because she’s gone…
Unable to sleep, a horrible anxious feeling coursing through my mind and body. It feels like everything is falling apart around me, completely out of my control. I got out of bed and came quietly downstairs before I woke anyone, before I added fuel to the fire, before I created an even bigger rift than… Continue reading Day 64…..confusion caused by clarity.
Sometimes in life you get amazing opportunities, a chance to reach out and grab something really special, something will cross your path that may be life changing. My feeling is that this might only ever happen once, it may be fleeting or maybe it could last forever, so I was always ready to grasp at… Continue reading My real love, my best friend….my everything.